Bikes for Sale

Eventually I’ll write about it, but I’ve taken to finding old, neglected steel framed bikes and fixing them up for resale (or my own personal collection). I’ll put links up here for bikes I currently have for sale.

Here’s what I’ve currently got:

1984 Trek 610 – Reynolds 531 Frame. Shimano 600 Group

Trek 610 Road Bike Shimano 600 Reynolds 531 Double Butted Lugged Steel
1984 Trek 610 – Reynolds 531 Frame

Tunturi 500R (1985 or 1986) (SOLD) Road Bike, 12 Speeds, 54cm frame, Chromoloy steel construction.

Tunturi 500R Chromoly steel lugged frame. (SOLD)

Manifesto of the Dionysian Socialist Collective

Manifesto of the Dionysian Socialist Collective

Preamble – in order to establish a free association artistic community based on the affirmation and cultivation of desires, the heightening of overflowing life, creative collaboration, mutual aide, and the eventual overthrow of capitalism we do affirm the following:

Founding Principles

1. All desire is holy.

2. All expression is creation is divine.

3. There is no god but nature. There is no god; all the gods exist.

4. There is no purpose in nature; it is all just matter and energy arranged in various ways.

5. Because there is no purpose in nature, the only value and meaning that exist is that which is created by those with the capacity for desire.

6. It is via the work of art, taken in the broadest sense, that desires are capable of establishing and communicating value.

7. By communicating value, art forms the basis for collectively shared meaning..

8. The values art creates are neither universal, nor necessary, and are therefore not unconditional.

9. Via a diversity of artistic styles, conflicting and contradictory values can coexist.

10. Human flourishing consists in the capacity to create, experience, and celebrate freely created art which is capable of enacting and celebrating a diversity of values that reflect the multiplicity of desire in a non-uniform community of mutual aide.

11. Desires and values enter into relationships of power with one another; thus every relationship between those who value and desire is a differential relationship of power. Power in itself is neither good nor bad, but all power is productive.


1. Suffering that produces art has value. Pointless suffering that does not produce art or meaning is ugly and cruel.

2. Capitalism and nationalism produce suffering and inhibit artistic creation for all but the wealthy and powerful, and therefore capitalism and nationalism must be resisted in the service of art and meaning creation for all.

3. The work day, private property, wage labor, the nuclear family, enforced monogamy, and the nation-state are all enemies of desire, art, culture, and human flourishing.

4. There is no necessary conflict between an individualism which allows for self-autonomy and a collectivism which provides for the common need and the collective good.

5. We reject idealistic utopianism and pragmatic reformism in equal measure.

6. Instead we seek to establish a community capable of affirming a plurality of desires through artistic creation and mutual aide against the power structures that inhibit the formation of such communities.

7. In such a community, working for incremental improvements exists side by side with principled revolutionary goals.

8. We seek broad solidarity without compromising our vision. This requires acceptance of ambiguity, comfort with lack of certainty, and acknowledgment that a balance must be struck between adherence to principles and acceptance of a diversity values and viewpoints. Neither principles nor diversity take priority, and there is always a constant interplay and dialectic between the two.

9. As a few individuals with little power or money, we seek first to create locally and small, while nevertheless maintaining world-historical, radically revolutionary ultimate goals.

10. The elimination of class hierarchy, the nation-state, and imperialism allows cosmopolitanism and globalism to combine with local autonomy to allow for productive cultural exchange and mutually beneficial cross-pollination of ideas instead of cultural appropriation and continued oppression.

11. Oppression and inequality on the basis of race, gender, sexuality (among others) are especially corrosive to the collective good and produce an excess of pointless suffering. They must be resisted.

Artistic Creation

1. Art is the transformation of desire into perceptual and conceptual content via an act of creation.

2. Art, in our sense, is broad enough to include the traditional fine and performing arts in addition to folk arts, outsider arts, the entirety of the literary arts and creative uses of language, public gatherings, festivals, celebrations, and… The list cannot be exhausted.

3. Any theoretical or practical engagement with art requires acknowledging and taking into account artistic creation, artistic experience, and most importantly the intersection between the two.

4. Therefore, even the most individual and personal artistic works and creations are also at the same time communal.

5. Truly communal festival celebrations, intentional intoxication, sexuality, limit experiences, and the joyful destruction of established values and pieties have the capability of intensifying feeling and allow for new creations and new interpretations of existence.

6. Art must be independent of commercial values and the interests of the ruling class to adequately express the desires of the artist and not become commodified in a way that merely reproduces the political-economic power system it seeks to resist and overcome.

6. The independent artist requires the means to acquire the necessities of survival and the material conditions of artistic creation. The artist also requires time for rest, for the activity of creation, for developing relationships, and perhaps most easily overlooked, for experiencing life as intensely and freely as possible.

7. Artistic creation requires the physical space for crafting, assembling, producing, performing, displaying, and experiencing. The independent artist requires such spaces that are free from conservative and reactionary pressures that inhibit desire and censor its expression.

8. In conditions of late-capitalism and the pressures these conditions put on artistic free spirits, revolutionary and liberating art and living must be cultivated and maintained against the pressures that seek to undermine these possibilities of radical change and human flourishing.

Existential Communal Individualism

1. “From each according to his ability, to each according to his need” needs to be appended with “and no more than is necessary than each requires for the opportunity to thrive.”

2. Unless we cannot account for and recognize the importance of small and simple pleasures—like the enjoyment that an old man sipping a glass of wine experiences at the end of the day, our activity and goals are worthless.

3. After the imperative “Do no irreparable harm,” the next and only other imperative is “Do not be boring.” Being interesting and taking interest in the world are more important than avoiding all harm. This is a dangerous ethic, however, because for it to be successfully and decently implemented requires having a careful and nuanced understanding of “irreparable harm.” Being willing to harm someone in order to avoid being boring could conceivably be used to justify awful cruelties.

4. Still, don’t be boring. Be curious. Do not avoid danger; seek it out in order to experience new limits and the joy in overcoming these constraints.

5. As Kant observed, two things fill the mind with wonder, the immensity of starry sky above and the moral law within. It must be added that the moral law within is a law only to oneself and is neither necessary, unconditional, nor universal. Experiment with your conscience. Experiment with your heart. Practice being maximally indifferent and maximally concerned at the same time.

6. Nevertheless, we counsel this maxim for universal application: care about the significant things. Do not care about the insignificant things.

6a. Be creative with what you call significant and insignificant, for there can be no objective criteria that determines what counts as significant and insignificant.

7. Avoid the workday as much as possible and live on as little money and resources as possible to still be able to enjoy and create.

8. “I prefer not to” as the key to living significantly and resisting the oppression of capitalism and the nation-state.

9. Abolish marriage, one and two-person parenting, gender norms, and the precarity of individual self-reliance for the means of survival.

10. Conceive of new ways to express the self. Experiment with style, affect, worldview, and identity.

Practical First Steps:

1. The political is a macro-relation comprised of a collective of individuals. As individuals we cannot directly choose the direction and configuration of political change. Therefore, politics at the existential level is a practice of and an attempt to live well.

2. To live well requires that one have access to the material conditions of survival and flourishing and connection to a community of shared values.

2a. Once an individual life is lived with others in a community of shared values, the possibilities of being intentionally political are magnified.

3. Communal living and cooperatively owned and operated spaces (until Capitalism falls) are the best means for finding the same time leaving time for creative, intellectual, and hedonistic pursuits both in solitude and with friends and comrades.

4. First practical proposal: seek out like-minded individuals until the resources and individuals that are needed come together to occupy, reside in, and operate a communal space with the means for self-sustaining flourishing under the current conditions of late-Capitalism.

5. We will seek out a combined residential and commercial space in an urban area. Living areas will be communally shared by enough individuals to collectively operate the commercial space as a leftist artist cafe which will be communally owned and operated and will feature music, visual art, philosophy, and spoken word as well as provide a space for political and community groups with shared values.

6. We seek to operate a publishing wing out of this space, which will maintain a web presence, publish a quarterly review as well as books under its imprint. Its scope will be broad enough to include leftist politics, accessible non-academic philosophy and theory, art, fiction, poetry, and other works of interest to the Dionysian Socialist movement and those with whom we have solidarity.

Long Term Utopian Goals:

1. Transform a low occupancy neighborhood into an artist commune without displacing the current residents or locally owned businesses or otherwise gentrifying the neighborhood.

1a. Thus the creation of such neighborhoods must be accompanied by a fight for radical housing rights, rent control (or the abolition of rent), abolition of the police and prisons, and resistance to development that exploits current residents in order to enrich Capital.

2. Incubate conditions under which artists (in the broadest possible sense) can operate outside the pressures of consumerism and late-Capitalism.

3. Eventually form confederations of free-association with other communities and neighborhoods seeking compatible goals.

4. Expand the power of such neighborhoods and communities both in their own sphere and collectively until they are capable of replacing exploitative capital and the state to provide individuals, neighborhoods, cities, and towns with the material means of survival and flourishing.

We, the Dionysian Socialist Collective, do affirm these principles and goals in order to affirm life and create the conditions under which we are able to flourish and live well with one another. In solidarity with all free-spirits and those whose desire is inhibited by the scourge of capitalism, we seek to create a new world out of the old, affirming the whole as we go. And so we drink to the Dionysian festival to come.


Why bikes?

“What topic can you not shut up about?” The question was posed to me while I was filling out a profile for a dating site the other day. “Something you can’t shut up about”—when I hear this, I think of the things you obsess about that no one else around really cares about; when you bring it up there are groans because you see something there that they don’t see. Ask anyone; for me that topics is bicycles. Where I live—Cincinnati—where the steep and frequent hills do not make biking particularly inviting, and in fact, make it prohibitively difficult and intimidating for most, there are not nearly so many who have learned to come to depend on and find joy in riding bikes as in the other places I’ve lived. But for me biking has become a passion and a way of life, such that my dating site response is quite literally true; I really cannot shut up about them. But why bicycles?

Hudepohl historic brewery Cincinnati
Cincinnati’s Urban Basin Bicycle Club taking one last look at a condemned historic brewery

I could go on and on about how biking is better for the environment and bicycle infrastructure is better for urban design. Or how much money you can save on gas, car payments, parking, insurance, and car maintenance (my total yearly transportation costs—including travel—are approximately $800). Or how in shape you’ll get both in terms of lower body muscle strength and cardiovascular endurance, increasing both fitness and life expectancy. I could talk about how cities become more livable and people happier when more people bike to work rather than drive for their commute. I could even talk about how much fun bikes are. Or about how good riding is for your mental health. These all are true, and there are many hundreds of articles to be found extolling these and the various other virtues and benefits of cycling. Most of these you could probably figure out for yourself anyway.

What can a body do? (Here I am channeling two philosophical heroes of mine—Spinoza and Deleuze). We don’t have even the slightest glimmer of an idea what a body can do. And before the invention of the bicycle, we had even less of an idea. The bicycle gives the already mobile human body an even greater range of motion, speed, and distance than it had before. Hiking 20 miles in a day is a good pace when covering long distances day after day, fully packed with gear for the journey. Running 26.2 miles in an afternoon pushes most bodies to or past their limit, but the ability to ride a bike with 60 pounds of gear 60 miles each day for weeks on end across entire continents is attainable for many fairly easily, and those miles are all powered by nothing but the human body.

Yes, cars can cover 60 miles in an hour as opposed to 60 miles in a day, and so for rapid transportation over long distances the car, train, plane, and motorcycle are all more convenient at making those distances small. But the speed of motorized transit is not a human speed. It is not a bodily speed. Yes, you can sightsee while riding in motorized transport; you can see the scenery blur past and make note of it. You can even stop along the route for photo ops at scenic overlooks, tourist destinations, and points of interest. You can be a tourist in a car or train, but you can’t explore. Only human speeds, speeds determined by what a body can do, allow for one to explore a space rather than only pass through and play the tourist. Bikes allow something different.

Consider speed. 15 miles per hour is a good but sustainable clip for an all-day bike ride. At that speed in favorable conditions you see a high degree of detail in your surroundings as you peddle past. Architecture. Animals and plants. Flowers and trees. Bridges, sunsets, rivers, and streams. The layout of cities and urban space. People watching from the saddle of a bike is exquisite. Stopping distance at that speed on a normal bike is about 9 feet. Something catches your attention out of the corner of your eye. Maybe it’s a baby turtle in your path or an arched bridge over your route. Maybe you notice a rose bush in full bloom or an abandoned brewery about to be torn down—its 100 year old brick facade more beautiful than any occupied building for miles—a little way off the street. On a bike, almost nothing along your route escapes your attention and there is always room to stop, observe, photograph, meditate, and explore from more angles.

Bikes take you along routes you would never experience by car. Cincinnati, for example, has hundreds of brick, flagstone, and cobblestone alleys interspersed through historic neighborhoods that are completely inaccessible by car, but by bike you can do 100 historic alleyways in a day. Or take the American rails to trails program which turns old, unused railroad beds that used to take freight across the country and turns them into dedicated bike paths that can take your human powered two wheels through some of the most fantastic scenery in the United States while covering the miles between cities. Eventually the rails to trails program will have created a route entirely of bike paths across the entire United States, highways built for human speeds and bodily freedom!

I hate using the word “freedom;” too loaded with mystification and too devoid of meaning in our present hegemonic ideological structure to be of much use for anything but an empty placeholder for liberatory values, but freedom is the first and last word that comes to mind as I wish to extol the virtue of the humble bicycle. Yes, one can bike for fitness or fashion or just for pleasure—and these are all fine reasons to ride a bike—but when you make a city or the countryside between cities a terrain to be explored by bike you learn to depend on your body, the very locus of an individual’s freedom, for the very act of moving from place to place. The bodily autonomy of every individual is sacred, and whatever expands the capacity of the body to do its own will is itself sacred as well. It is a shame that bicycles were invented in the modern era because for all their holy value in enhancing bodily autonomy there is no god of the bike (though cyclists do have their patron saint), and so I claim bikes and the freedom they give for the Olympian goddess Artemis, the virgin hunter who killed anyone who tried to rape her and is therefore one of the patrons of bodily autonomy in the ancient pantheon of the gods. Go forth with a bike between your legs and pedals beneath your feet! We do not even know yet what a body can do! All hail Artemis! All hail the patroness of bikes!


It’s all just Matter and Energy Arranged in Various Ways

I am a strict “it’s all just matter and energy arranged in various ways” kind of materialist, not the vulgar reductionist kind that skips the “various ways” part of the equation, but completely unwilling to countenance the existence of a separate transcendent plane of being that influences, interacts with, directs, or gives meaning to our very material reality. Just a single flat plane of immanence in which all things are. A kind of Spinozistic monism shot through with modern physics, Nietzschean will to power, and Heidggerian “being-there.”

Let me explain. God does not exist. Nature is not caused or created by something outside of nature. There are no mystical causes or transcendent effects. It really is all just matter and energy arranged in various ways. Photons, protons, electrons, and all the other particles that makes up our best explanations for things. What physics attempts to understand is what is. Nevertheless…

Quetzalcoatl Aztec god of wisdom. God is dead.
God is dead. Long live the gods.

Yes, demons, gods, fates, furies, muses, Bodhisattvas, and chimeras do exist, but their existences are determined by the flows of matter and energy between actually existing material individuals—the Sun, a human body, a baseball, the drop of dew on the wing of a hummingbird in the morning, which despite being “things” are nevertheless ephemeral, temporary, and always in flux. Heraclitus was right, you can never step in the same river twice; that’s true, and you can also only fuck the same lover once, embrace the same mother once, give alms to the same beggar once, and write a single word only once. All of these prosaic, everyday things and their seemingly mystical, mythical counterparts like Dionysus, the Great Pan, Yahweh, Ba’al, Kali, Quetzalcoatl, Minerva, and Loki are just ever-changing material flows that have a capacity to affect other flows and be affected by still other flows in turn. Flows of shit, flows of oil, flows of wine, sperm, sea water, menstrual blood and the blood from wounds, flows of mud, quicksand, chicken stock, fish guts, and clear plum brandy. Flows of gravity, flows of dark matter, flows of ionizing particles released by the sun, their speeds exceeding the solar escape velocity. Flows of language, pheromones, hormones, stomach acid, bile, intestinal bacteria, and neurotransmitters. Flows even of photons reflected off the surface of bodies and emanating from the destruction of matter rejecting of the dualism of particle and wave.

What physics studies is all there is, but all there is exceeds physics’ (or any human knowledge) ability to understand or categorize it. Just because Dionysus and Apollo and all the rest are not literal, eternal persons who walk and talk and have a will doesn’t mean they are not real; just don’t think they are magic, spiritual, mystical or transcendent. Just like any human construct, the names of the gods, angels, demons, faeries, sprites, djinn, demigods, heroes, souls, wizards, witches, warlocks, phoenixes, and dragons do not refer to the actual existence of things; they refer to capacities for matter and energy to affect and be affected. Once we realize, along with Spinoza, the prince of philosophers, that God and nature are one and the same, room is opened for a new materialist religion and spirituality. The gods are holy because they stand in for our awe, our wonder, our understanding, our overcomings, and our best (and worst) selves. They stand for the way that the whole of all nature or even little bits of nature exceed our ability to perceive, let alone comprehend. So we can stand in holy reverence for real things, the only things that exist. Pour out offerings for the earth, the sky, and our own list of struggles and overcomings. And such religions, rooted as they must be in what’s real, instead of giving us moral cover to deny reality, force us to engage with the world as it is, including its injustice and suffering, affirming what is—as it is—and attempting to transform it and give it meaning from within at the same time. We can do no other. And if all of this seems a bit too serious, remember that it’s all just matter and energy arranged in various ways.


The Three Books that Ruined Me

Three books ruined me for living a comfortably boring middle-class life among the petty bourgeois. Before I tell you what those books are, I have to confide that it tickles my sappy romantic soul that books can still ruin people. How many people are ripe for being completely molded by a book? I cannot say. But we exist, and as long as there are a few of us, writing books and reading them will still be worthwhile.

The first book that ruined me was Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings—which is itself three books, but no matter. The tale about Hobbits, Elves, Rings of Power, Dwarves, Dragons, and Wizards, told in an almost mythic voice, gives the reader a taste of what it would mean to live in a world where actions have moral weight, where identities matter, where who we are and what we do have ultimate meaning and significance, that they affect the fate of all good creatures in an enchantingly beautiful but fragile land. Good and evil exist, and there is satisfying and exciting adventure and peril in fighting for the good and resisting the evil, all for the cause of freedom and contented happiness of the small and the weak. Meaning. Weight. Death not in vain. But Tolkein’s books are a mere taste of weight because it’s not real; it is pure fantasy, and only the insane or those obsessed with cosplay would say otherwise. If a person is sufficiently taken with the life of meaningful adventure in a fantasy world, real life with its lack of apparent meaning seems dull and weightless, lackluster, and so as I child I would lose myself in play, pretending what I did was exciting and that it mattered. Playing with the idea of moral significance in Tolkien’s fantasy world was the perfect way to prime a child for what came next.

The next book that did me in was the Bible, the Hebrew scriptures and the New Testament. All of that make believe and play in Tolkien’s Middle-Earth that sustained my meaning-craving as a child failed to satisfying my developing reality principle as an adolescent. I needed something serious enough that it could withstand an adolescent coming to terms with the real world and the increasing pressure of the social world. With the Bible, that meaningful and exciting struggle between good and evil was both real and something I could be a part of. Though the meaning that the Bible finds in the world isn’t actually real—there are no gods, no afterlife, no redeeming drops of blood—I could pretend they were real, and I could surround myself with people who would tell me they were real. And oh, I believed in God and the afterlife and the redeeming drops of blood! I organized my life around them. I gave my life to them. Every action, every thought, every deed, every conversation mattered; the fate of the souls of the lost were always at stake.

There are still works of great sublimity to be created

If the Lord of the Rings showed me what it would be like if things mattered and the Bible showed me what it would be like if I believed it that they really did matter, then Nietzsche’s Beyond Good and Evil taught me how to live meaningfully after learning that nothing could ever matter in the way Tolkien hinted at and the Bible promised. God is dead. God’s been long dead, at least from the perspective of a single human life, and most people have no idea what that even means. It’s not that god doesn’t exist; he never did, and besides that’s not the point. The point is that god no longer matters. We have ceased to understand cause and effect and the natural world in terms of a creator. We no longer believe sickness and health, good fortune and bad are the result of the providence of a beneficent yet inscrutable creator. We no longer believe that morality depends on the will and command of the Lord our God. At the same time nature has become disenchanted. No sense of destiny. No sense of mission. No sense of fate, character, good, or evil. But weight exists nonetheless. Weight depends on the will and health of the one for whom things are heavy. Mattering, significance, and moral weight are nothing more than the way each person relates to their world. And yet each of us are the kinds of beings who, seemingly inevitably, find ways to make things matter. Just because things don’t matter on their own, just because there is no god and no good and no evil out there in the universe, doesn’t mean that we can’t find things meaningful.

And here is where I return to that average, middle-class, contented life among the petty bourgeois. A house. A car. A husband or wife. 2.5 kids. A career. Health insurance. Security (or so we believe). A 401k. Since there is no meaning written into the nature of things, it’s perfectly possible to find value and meaning in these particular things; nothing’s stopping you. I just can’t do it. I was primed by these three books — Tolkien, the Bible, Nietzsche —for a more mythic, heroic, and morally sublime sort of meaning. What ever happened to the liberty and happiness of all free creatures, even the weakest? Whatever happened to the fate of souls (including the fate of one’s own soul!)? There may be no ring of power to destroy or Great Eye to defeat. Souls may not be fated for all eternity. There may not be any redeeming drops of blood. But there are still compelling enemies to fight and still satisfying battles to be won. Things to be overcome. Works of great beauty and sublimity to create. And if enough of us can see it, there are still free peoples whose liberty and comfort can be secured from their oppressors. One only has to have the vision for it. And the courage.


If it wasn’t for the Wabash River…

I grew up in a Midwestern river town. There are dozens of these towns scattered throughout the middle of the country. Until modernity allowed us to colonized deserts and mountains, virtually all dense human settlements were founded by rivers, lakes, or seas, water being our only way to live in an otherwise inhospitable world. With the 21st Century’s domination of nature, our cities no longer depend on the bodies of water they are built beside. Most of our transportation is now over land or by air, and we can dig deeply for potable water or send it in via pipeline from miles away, but our cities and their locations still bear witness to our ancient need to be near the water. And so in the Midwest where there are no seas and the prairies stretch on for miles, our towns are built in or near those valleys that break up the monotony of the continent and once provided the easiest means to move heavy goods and raw materials in and out. The mighty Ohio and Mississippi and Missouri. The Wabash and the Miami. The Tippecanoe. The Calumet. Most of their names reminding us that none of this land is ours.

Independence, Indiana. Wabash River.
The Wabash River at Independence, Indiana

The river town I grew up in is also a university town; the university is the culturally dominant force in the region, changing an otherwise farm based economy into a diverse one drawing on what amounts to a second city’s worth of professionals, scholars, and students in the university community. But it is a town that remains distinctively Midwestern and distinctively Indiana. Because I could get a world-class education without leaving, I stayed—mostly out of necessity—until I had my degree and a way out via a funded grad program in Chicago (a lake town, not a river town, I should note). By that time, I was so ready to get out. For all the university’s civilizing influence, my hometown still felt like a backwater, a place I couldn’t wait to escape.

Leaving the small university farm town for the cosmopolitan City of Big Shoulders was a life transformative experience, molding me into the person that resembles the one I am now. But the intervening years between my coming of age in Chicago and now the writer of this blog were difficult and transformative in their own way. Rejection of profession. Divorce. Alienation. Desperation. Depression. Panic attacks that sent me to the hospital and led me to think about suicide in a serious way for the first time in my life. All stories for another time. What is important here is that in my desperate crisis where sanity and spirit seemed to have left me, I returned home to the river town of my youth.

Returning home felt like defeat. Once I had begun to excel in academics as an undergraduate, I knew I had my way out of there, and nothing would stop me from taking it. I took the first way out that presented itself, grad school in Chicago, but here I was back where I started, divorced, in a mountain of student debt, directionless, with that deep pit of dread intimating that my life was over.

No job. The fumes of a savings account buoyed by early withdrawals from my meager 401k. I had all the time in the world and very little money to spend (and nowhere really to spend it, even if I did). Almost all the friends from my hometown had moved on to other places as I had, and so besides my immediate family I was virtually alone in a place that was both familiar and yet felt like a distant memory. When in good mental health, alone with free time to burn for me means writing, art, creative energy, but in my state of depressive anxiety and existential dread, alone with free time can lead to desperation, more anxiety. Spiraling.

When I returned to my hometown, I also returned to my parents’ home. They live on the Eastern edge of the prairie that eventually gives way to the Great Plains and eventually the Rockies to the West, about eight miles from the center of town and the river valley in which it sits. During this period I would wake up every morning, pack up my things—a laptop, some books and a notebook, some weed, a camera—hop on a bike, and set off across the flat farmland until I found the bike paths and streets that would channel my two wheels down to the river. There by the river, paved trails run along both banks through parks, creek valleys, wooded banks, and an old abandoned golf course. I would smoke weed, get coffee and read at the cafe, and bike up and down those riverside paths, where the only people I encountered were joggers and the homeless, the latter setting up small camps in the woods on the banks of the river, camps that lasted as long as the cops would leave them be. Some days I would put a bottle of wine in my water bottle, pack a lunch, and sit under a tree in the old golf course overgrown with weeds, and watch the clouds, listen to the birds. Think. Be.

This river I grew up by and returned to is the Wabash, a tributary of the Ohio, which is then a tributary of the mighty Mississippi, which in turn flows into the Gulf of Mexico. So the Wabash is three degrees removed from the sea, but nevertheless songs have been written about it. The Indiana state song is “On the Banks of the Wabash, Far Away.” And Johnny Cash has a little known song in his oeuvre “If it wasn’t for the Wabash River” about an encounter he had with a local in my hometown of Lafayette, Indiana while on tour. Give the song and the story that goes with it a listen.

Sometimes songs are written about you before you were born

The story is about Johnny Cash pulling over his tour van in Lafayette and meeting a man who is fishing down by the river. This man’s wife left him for California, and he has finally given up trying to get her back. In his desperate depression he turns to fishing for catfish on the banks of the Wabash as a distracting solace, more about solitude and stillness than actual fishing. In Cash’s words, fishing by the river day and night, day after day, got him to the point where he just about has his mind back together. The chorus of the song goes “If it wasn’t for the Wabash River, I’d be out of my mind.” Substitute a bike for a fishing pole, and the song could be, just about word for word, about me and my time by the river.

All that time biking up and down the Wabash. Sitting under shade trees. Smoking weed and listening to the flow of the current and the sounds of song birds and eagles that fly up and down the valley. Alternating between pushing my body hard and leisurely riding those solitary paths under the trees that shade the banks was like a balm and a poultice on the boil of my throbbing dread and anxiety. Slowly the poisons came to the surface. Slowly the pressure was relieved. Some days I’d cry as the wind dried sweat and tears off my streaked face leaving salt stains on my shirt and messenger bag. Other days I’d laugh like a madman at the absurdity of it all. A summer of doing that, and though nothing was resolved about how I’d make a living or how to get over lost loves, I was well. My body was forming itself into something new, so too my mind and spirit. And in my memory’s eye I can still see myself pushing the pedals as the current of the Wabash flows beside me. And I can sing, right along with Johnny Cash, “If it wasn’t for the Wabash River, I’d be out of my mind.”


Dionysus on a Bike and Apollo on a Train

Dionysus, the god of wine, dance, intoxicated and feral wisdom, and Apollo, clear sited, wise, all-seeing, rational god of the sun. Living as though I am a devotee of these gods, their initiate, and their protege, this blog is a documentation of living under their signs. Part travel blog—I’ll record journeys by bike across continents in attempts to find temporary zones of autonomy and struggle to help sustain them. Part art blog—I’ll show you the images created while inspired by this tiny pantheon. Part writer’s blog—you’ll get to read excerpts of larger works and essays on life, philosophy, politics, food and drink, and exploration by bike and train.

The Journey Begins

A bit about me (and therefore a bit about this blog): I’m a philosopher by training who left academia a few years ago to find less restrictive modes of expression and more possibilities for creating art and a new world. Now I’m a wanderer who has traded scholarly philosophy for sophistry, poetry, fiction, and making the self a work of art. Founder of the currently embryonic Dionysian Socialist Collective, a society of artists and radicals who recognize that we live in a broken culture that has been tainted by capitalism’s scourge and bourgeois values and so attempts to live differently finding ways of living that are liberating and creatively expansive.

After quitting a job as a philosophy professor I left a rat race of a city for a town where I can live off bartending, leaving time for writing, art, bike rides, and exploration of the hidden and neglected spaces that still remain outside our social order of domination and control in and around my newly adopted city, Cincinnati where I’ll live until I complete my first novel and then it’s the road again and more wandering.

This blog represents attempts to live differently. Valuing the body and art more than career and wealth. Disdaining success for the open road and the shedding off of inhibition. Thinking community on different terms. Same with living arrangements, romantic partnerships, making a living, even movement from place to place. I’m a novice at all of these things—still learning, and I would welcome my readers’ input and feedback along the way. So while this blog is a place to publish various forms of creative expression, it is more about that quest to live better, which from where I sit means to live apart and even in opposition as much as possible.

Here’s what I’ve learned so far, and I have yet to fully live up to my best wisdom. Quit your job. Sell your car. And your house. Make art. Join the water protectors and join antifa (remembering that we are killing the planet and putting indigenous immigrants into concentration camps). Shout “I would prefer not to” at the empty and stultifying life propped up by Capital and its effects. Stop buying stuff except what you need to live with joy. Put wrenches in the works of Capital, remembering that if something is not accessible to the humble worker, the poor, the homeless, and the outcast, it is not revolutionary or liberating. These are among the themes explored here.

What will follow will be an eclectic mix of philosophy and art. Memoir and fiction. Essay and photography. Documenting places explored, the uncertain and variegated terrain of the unconscious and its desires and the ideas those encounters generate. Expect posts every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Once I hit the road again, I’ll post more… or less… We will see.